This is something no daughter who didn't get along with her mother wants to admit. My admission today is not a surprise to members of my family and Michael, and is not at all flattering to me. I know I am critical like my mother was. Even a compliment from her didn't sound like a compliment. I am picky about my house like her (yet a slob at the same time, if that's possible). I say the same things: "It wouldn't take any more effort to put the dish in the dishwasher instead of the counter." (That's all I can remember for now.) I snack when I'm not hungry.
Now, something worse. I am developing my mother's body. The round tummy and extra ripples around my middle. The dry legs. How did this happen? I always prided myself on taking better care of myself than my mother did, so I'm rather appalled by this.
This is depressing! I don't quite know how to handle it. Maybe a list of some ways I'm different from my mother would help.
-I do get exercise. I go to the gym. I walk my dogs. I like walking.
-I do know what a balanced meal is and don't use a lot of processed foods.
-I am compassionate (most of the time). I help others.
-I have close friends and am open with them.
-I am playful and can have fun.
-I adore my dogs.
Ideally, I'd write a long, long list.
I also need to remember that some of the ways I'm like my mother aren't negative. It's OK to take pride in your house. It's OK to have standards. Maybe I need to stop thinking about all of this and become the best Barbara I can be.
I also need to remember that some of the ways I'm like my mother aren't negative. It's OK to take pride in your house. It's OK to have standards. Maybe I need to stop thinking about all of this and become the best Barbara I can be.
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